The Good. The Bad. The Ugly.

I rather start with the UGLY.  It’s an understatement. Chemo side effects are so damn ugly. The first 7 days after my first round of treatment challenged me mentally and physically. The fatigue was probably the worst as I’m typically bouncing off the walls. BUT I overcame it and consider being 25% done. Next sesh is November 7th. Can’t wait.

The ugly is said and I’m not going to relish in it. 

The Bad. Wigs. 

At dinner one evening, we were discussing losing my hair and man child said to me some wise words. 

He simply stated to embrace and let it empower me. Working on that.

 I’ve started losing my hair, a lot. So I’m now GI Jane with a shaved head. Someone told me that when you and your husband shave your hair, you become a warrior. We are now both warriors.

I’m not sure if I look like 2007 Brittany Spears (basically I’ve been having meltdowns so it makes sense) or Sinead O’Connor or Mr. Clean.

I’ve been looking at wigs and there are SO many to choose from. My resource (social worker) said what matters is that I love the way I feel and how I see myself with one on. 

Frankly, I have tried multitude of wigs and somehow look like ET, so we will continue working on it. 

The Good. I have met some really great people in the BC (boobie cancer) community and I know I’ll pay it forward in sharing my knowledge and love to others someday. (Maggie B-this ones for you!)

The stinks (the ankle biters)  check on me often, they love hard and I am proud of their strength.

My family. I am grateful for their constant affection and concern.

To my friends; thank you for your calls, texts and checking in on me and bringing food! There have been some exhausting evenings and we are so thankful for the easy meals!

My husband. Wow. He is so supportive. He makes me laugh, he treats me like a queen and is my best cheerleader. I can’t imagine writing this chapter without him. 

I love you all. Thank you for loving me through the good, the bad and the ugly. 

Love, Cancer Tits

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